By DALE ROBERTSON
Copyright 2007 Houston Chronicle

Monica Seles does not look back with anger or remorse, only with
occasional regret. And Seles' regret is tempered by two truths, that
she was a victim of bad luck, not bad behavior, and that her life has
been almost incomprehensively wonderful.

Yes, she got stabbed in the back in the middle of a match, derailing a
career that might have broken all the records. Yes, a chronic foot
problem, resulting in two operations, has made these last few years
frequently hellish while prolonging her official tennis swan song. But
there is no hint of bitterness when she speaks.

"I had terrible luck, that's true," Seles said. "What happened to me
has never happened to any (athlete). But what happened was beyond my
control. I didn't do anything wrong. Even the foot ... it just
happened. I'd be lying if I didn't say there were a lot of bad days,
but I've always tried to roll with it and stay positive."

Seles, 33, misses competitive tennis, and that as much as anything
explains this long goodbye. Almost four years after her last tour
match, a first-round loss at the French Open, she remains unretired.

Taking on Navratilova
That's why she played Martina Navratilova at River Oaks on Thursday.
The exhibition, which Seles won 6-7 (1), 6-2, 10-1, served as the
first step to determining the when, the where and the why of the last
step.

"My personal theory is, if you're retired, you're retired," Seles
said. "You don't come back. And I don't feel like I'm ready to say
that. I'm in such good shape. I only wish I was in this good a shape
when I was playing. It's hard to accept that, just because of an
injury, you're finished."

Seles dreams of playing the French Open again. The Australian and U.S.
opens, too, if not Wimbledon.

She believes she has maybe five tournaments left in her reconstructed
foot and, she said, "I want to make sure I'm fully prepared. The
tournaments I played injured were the worst times of my life. I told
myself I'd never do that again."

Wear and tear had caused a bone in the bottom of her foot to
disintegrate, causing pain.

"The last three years have been so frustrating," Seles said. "For me,
it's so simple. I just love to play tennis. Anyone that's been close
to me can see the ups and downs I've been through, feeling that it's
going to be OK, then being very disappointed and down all over again.
I could write a book on rehab.

"Finally in December, when I started hitting again, I thought, 'Hey,
this is feeling pretty good.' I still have to be very cautious, to
take every other day off, but I called Martina and said (playing an
exhibition) would be really fun. I told her, 'I know you're done, but
I'm not really sure I am.' "

Navratilova sort of owed her. When she was coming out of retirement
again a couple of years ago, she had recruited Seles for a pair of
matches in New Zealand, winning both. Back in the day, as Seles was
coming up and Navratilova was going down, they squared off 17 times in
less than four years. Seles won 10, including the 1991 U.S. Open final
and a Wimbledon semifinal in 1992.

Navratilova's career would become the antithesis of Seles' interrupted
one, enduring and fruitful. Seles has been forced to settle with fruitful.

"What happened to Monica," Navratilova said, "was ludicrous, so unfair."

Seles collected nine Grand Slam titles, eight of them before she
turned 20 — and seven of the last eight she contested before being
stabbed in the back by an unemployed Steffi Graf-obsessed lathe
operator in Hamburg 14 years ago this month. With Seles gone from the
tour for the subsequent 2 1/2 years, Graf collected six of her record
21 majors, three more than Navratilova's total.

There are plenty of players like Seles. She invented a genre. Her
two-fisted power game from the deep backcourt, accompanied by a
guttural symphony of grunts, moans and shrieks, foretold where women's
tennis was headed.

Beating an idol
But she would prefer to write the final chapter. And, if that's going
to happen, it will have started in Houston, where the story began. In
1989, Seles, then 15, beat Chris Evert at Westside Tennis Club to
claim the first of her 53 WTA titles. She remembers every detail.

"You're 15 years old, you've watched Chrissie who is kind of your idol
and suddenly you're across the net from her," Seles said. "I'd lost to
her pretty bad a couple months before in Boca Raton and, to just
actually win a tournament, against Chrissie, that was amazing.

"Growing up, everybody says, 'Oh, Monica is going to be great, blah,
blah, blah.' But, until it happens, you never really know. As a
player, you have doubts. (Beating Evert) was almost a validation. I
said I don't care if I ever win another tournament. At least I won
one. I'll never forget taking that big (cardboard) check they used to
give you in the old days onto the airplane with me. I still have it
somewhere. It was for more money than I'd ever seen — $50,000. How
could I forget that?"